Hello, fellow meaning-seekers, chaos-riders, and general enthusiasts of "wait but what does it all MEAN?" I'm thrilled you've found your way to this strange little corner of the internet where we're going to get deeply, perhaps concerningly obsessed with a meaning-making system called the Matrix of Destiny.

Think of this as your friendly neighborhood deep dive into what happens when you combine:

• Ancient numerology that would make Pythagoras need a fainting couch

• Tarot archetypes that Carl Jung would absolutely lose his mind over

• That thing where you explain a complex spiritual concept using only Taylor Swift lyrics and scenes from Succession

• My personal conviction that everything can be understood better through alchemy (yes, THAT alchemy — the turning lead into gold one that medieval scholars were absolutely batty over)

Here's the deal: I've spent an embarrassing amount of time studying this system that tells us about ourselves through our birth dates. But instead of giving you a neat little "you're a 7 which means you're a warrior!" summary, we're going deep. Like, "let me tell you about how this number showed up in ancient Hermetic texts and also that one episode of Supernatural" deep.

Each post will tackle one of the 22 archetypal energies in excruciating yet hopefully entertaining detail. We'll look at how these energies show up in different positions in your chart — because trust me, having a 15 in your "gifts" position hits VERY differently than having it in your "karma" position (one means you're magnetic and influential, the other means you might have been a little too magnetic and influential in a past life, if you know what I mean. Sup, former cult leader!).

Fair warning: these posts will be long. Like, "maybe grab a snack and tell your loved ones you'll be back in an hour" long. But I promise to keep you entertained with:

• Absolutely ridiculous historical spiritualism references

• Pop culture comparisons that probably only make sense to chronically online sweetie pies

• Tangents about alchemical symbolism that somehow circle back to making perfect sense

• My deeply held belief that everything can be explained through either medieval art or episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Will I post regularly? Absolutely not. Will I randomly drop a 15,000-word essay about how the number 13 is actually the most misunderstood energy in the system and also here's what it has to do with both transformation of the soul AND that one scene in Mean Girls? You bet your astrolabe I will.

So buckle up, buttercup. We're about to get way too intense about numbers, and I, for one, couldn't be more excited.

Welcome to sublimatrix. May your quest for meaning be weird and wonderful.

(And yes, that ARE alchemical puns in the name. We'll get to those. I have SO MANY thoughts about the symbolism of sublimation and mercury and honestly this could be its own post but I'm trying to show SOME restraint here.)

Next up: Energy 1, or "So You Think You're An Alchemist: A Beginner's Guide to Turning Lead into Gold (Metaphorically) (Usually)"